I was hoping to get back into the groove, but alas it appears that I’m going to act as my own gatekeeper.
While I can spout excuses about being tired from the weekend, being busy with Scout meetings and work, the truth is that I’ve just lost my mojo (I’m certain it’s temporary). I’m also (nearly certain) of the exact cause.
This coming weekend is an annual kite event in my own home town. I can whine about how I don’t have enough (or new product), how the event lost my number when I told them that I was done putting in half a work week for free while no one mentioned my kitemaking, how the weather is not conducive this weekend, and fall back on “I’m tired”. However, I’m really just getting in my own way, being afraid to stand up for myself and my work to “older”, more connected members of the local kite community, and wishing that I had new stuff to show off (when I’m the one that hasn’t made the time to complete projects) and the old stuff is fine anyway.
The week hasn’t been a total loss though, I did go by the local gallery and shoot a couple short videos. However, with my current mindset, I was hesitant to even look at them. I know they’re not going to be great, but some stupid part of me wants them to be perfect now. That may have something to do with the kite festival being in town too (the kite getting all the attention are basically giant flying balloons that is not approachable for the average guy, in fact the kite owners chase people away from them).
I promise, I’ll get the video up (but probably not until after the weekend) with notes on artwork that hangs in the background.
ENOUGH